Why am I so quick to blame everything on myself?

This post is a response to a question initially posed on Quora, and can also be accessed via “https://www.quora.com/Why-am-I-so-quick-to-blame-everything-on-myself/answer/Antonio-Amaral-1

Most likely because you’ve been conditioned to believe that everything is your fault, whether it has or hasn’t been. You may have been raised in a household where blameshifting and victim-shaming were standard responses to complaints, which is far more common than most people want to admit, given how prevalent that behaviour is in society.

We are generally all taught to internalize our pains and cope silently with the mistreatments we receive from others, and that’s primarily a consequence of other people’s incapacity to do anything that could help alleviate another’s suffering. Most people are just too busy trying to keep their heads above water in a dystopic world where they can’t afford to care for others because doing so comes at the expense of their survival.

This condition of “everyone for themselves” is by design and has been cultivated in society over the last several decades by a ruling class that has pitted individuals and groups within the working class against one another.

They’ve realized it’s cheaper to cultivate animosity within the lower classes than to support income equity and economic justice.

The consequence is for people to internalize their unresolved issues and begin a process of suicidal ideation. Blaming yourself for everything is a slippery slope, not limited to your personal experience but also a cultivated attitude in society. We can see an upward trend correlating suicidal ideation with the increased economic injustice we are all forced to endure by the ownership class.

Suicide Data and Statistics

In essence, the long-term consequences of the class war waged against the working class is a strategy of deflection away from their persistent threats while simply directing a flow of negative sentiment back onto the working class while denying the majority a valid outlet for their struggles, and that creates a solution for them that permits them to ignore the suffering they cause.

They have become so successful in cultivating a self-destructive form of lower-class pruning that whenever someone steps outside the paradigm and shockingly challenges their destruction, many among the lower classes will fight to protect the system of abuse by attacking those who do not capitulate and die quietly so as not to disturb their quiet reverie.

People like Luigi Mangione respond in diametric opposition to their expectations of people internalizing their abuses, and that represents a shock to a system they cannot tolerate, so take measures to ensure vigilantism like his is presented to the public in such a way that he becomes a message to the little people of what will happen to them if they resist and fight back.

In short, believing everything is your fault is precisely the attitude cultivated in society because that’s how the ruling class can rule with a minimal amount of their blood being shed.

How do I explain facts without being called defensive?

This post is a response to a question posed in its complete format: “People tell me I’m being defensive, when I’m really only explaining the literal facts that happened. How do I do that without being called defensive?”

Examine your motives.

Why do you feel a need to explain facts to people?

Has someone asked you for those details?

If they haven’t, they will interpret your input as motivated by a personal agenda, often defensiveness.

Your facts may be necessary to defend an action or correct a misinterpretation, in which case, your perspective may be critical to ensuring that the clarity and accuracy of events are maintained so as not to negatively affect someone unfairly due to a misjudgment or biased conclusion.

What also often happens is that when someone does offer clarifying information that an abuser doesn’t want to be made known, they will attempt to gaslight the messenger with accusations like they’re being defensive.

If you’re constantly explaining facts and that’s causing many people to accuse you of being defensive, then that could be a compulsion you developed from an abusive environment where you were constantly disbelieved and have overcompensated for that accusation by feeling compelled to explain facts, whether they’re relevant or not to resolving whatever dynamic you’ve been caught up in.

What people tell you is a clue either to the behaviour of yours you’re not entirely clear on or a clue to their attitudes. There is no universal answer as to which it would be, but your best bet is to be mindfully clear about your actions and why you chose them.

Other people will always say something; often, that thing they say has less to do with you than it does about them.

Your environment may be one where you feel compelled to offer explanations to defend yourself while being told that you’re being defensive. If that’s the case, then it’s most likely an abusive environment, and some abuser is deliberately gaslighting you to make you feel insecure about yourself.

Only you can know what the truth would be in this case.

Good luck.